it's cold. and i miss people.

I'm not sure if it's the weather doing this but lately i've been missing a lot of people. Every night before I go to sleep I listen to the CD player(mp3 players are not allowed in the military) and just think about friends and family. The last time I did this routine was during the beggining of my service in the army. After a while, that intense feeling kinda faded away. But, for some reason, that feeling is back.

Although nothing much has changed in terms of missing them, I feel I've grown distant towards them. NewYork does not feel as close to my heart anymore. The friends, the love, the passion that I left behind seem to have drifted apart. I guess that's what time does to things. That distance makes me miss them even more.

The surrounding walls of this military base has grown onto me. My heart feels more settled here rather than the life that I left behind. How will I be able to catchup with my life? There will be so many things that I've missed out on. I guess if I think about it in a more hopeful way, there are so many things that I haven't done that I will get to do.

I wonder what my friends are up to. I miss them so much.