back home.

i'm back home for my second break from the army. it's really good to be back home. good to see family and friends again. but, there is something about this break that doesn't make it feel like a break at all. this break doesn't mean i'm done with the army. this break, the only thing i'll get out of it is just a couple of days of good sleep and rest. this break doesn't do much to me right now. my life is still at a halt. i'm doing nothing that feels productive. i'm still stuck. i'm still a dog a on leash, a longer leash at the moment. this break is not a break.