noise

Recently, I've been constantly thinking about what I should do after getting out of the army. Well, lets see... I'll spend june & july in Seoul. Maybe I'll travel to China and Europe for a week or two. I'll also probably work as an intern in a Korean media firm and learn about the basics of webdesign via tutorials. Then I'll pack my bags and head to NewYorkCity. I will continue with my film&tv major and also declare journalism as my second major. I'll spend two more years in NYU and then what? I have so many things I want to do but when it comes to deciding what to do, the what-i-want-to do factor becomes smaller. I start thinking of what am I good at, what kind of work fits me? Should I or should I not, how much money am I gonna get? As soon as I start thinking of all these things my head just fills up with noise. That's the point. They are just all NOISE - uneccessary and poisonous noise. I have no idea how my life will turn out. I've been stuck in alice-in-the-wonderland for so long that I've lost touch with what I should do with my life.

I talked about my situation with my Dad. He cleared it up for me in just five simple words. "Just do what you want." BAM! A very obvious answer but an answer that got rid of all the noise in my head. I'll just do what I want and see where it takes me from there. All I need to do is to completely devote my self into the task that is in front of me. Geez, what happened to the me that once enjoyed not knowing what will happen the next day. What happened to the guy that embraced going with the flow?

So, what do I want to do right now?

I just want to go back to school and pursue my passion in learning and being a student. We'll see where I go from there.

P.S.
All of the things that I want to do will completely depend on how the sunken South Korean Navy ship situation plays out.

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/04/16/world/asia/16korea.html?ref=world.