empty.

i'm starting to feel that silent emptiness again. it comes and goes. now it's back. i don't quite know how to describe this feeling - not that i can really describe anything into words well. it feels like some drought has settled into a garden full of life. as each day passes the garden just keeps dryin until there is no signs of any life. i know that this will go away at some point so i'm not really worried. 10 more months left in the army. 10 more months of routine, labor, and dealing with wackos. just ten more months and i'm gettin my life back...

i just want to repeat my previous statement. "10 more months of routine, labor, and dealing with wackos..." Routine, labor, and dealing with wackos. Will life outside of the army be any different? As soon as I return to newyork i'll find my own routine, and i'll be laboring/working, and i'm pretty sure i'll meet a variety of wackos that I need to deal with. So how is that any different from my life in the army? Ofcourse, newyork is much more colorful compared to the life I have here but if we look at the bottom line, there's not much of a difference. Is there? Well, yes because if I had the choice between army life vs. new york life I would definitely choose newyork. There must be some difference that is making me lean towards the newyork life. But, I kind of find it funny that everyone's life may seem different but underneath the equation, the formula is the same.